When it comes to the nine months of pregnancy I find myself completely lacking as a supportive, positive influence and advocate for my wife's current morning (all day) sickness. Along the way I missed the class about this. You would think that since we already have gone through this once I would have it down... but I don't and yeah well I need to have it down.
It is such a great time in life to be growing your family and seeing your priorities shift and adjust off of you toward your spouse and children. Now my beat poet, preacher wife is incredibly strong, inspirationally tenacious, and has more endurance than anyone I know. I hope that with each day I can seek out ways to encourage her through these times of odoriferous carnage and edible drought. I desire so deeply to find flesh to being a man of God who loves his wife deeply and meaningfully. I want to discover the hidden treasures of growing through grace, loving beyond self. This life is a fragile balance among so many things and people who "need" your time and attention- for me it is a constant dance between church, teens, adults, family, child, personal wellness, service, and spiritual vitality- to name a few. I wish there was a magical protocol for living out ones life to the fullest. As I peruse the scriptures especially the examples of Jesus I fail at finding instruction on fathering infants and nurturing morning sick wives. I do however see a man who lived out grace and seeded hope into every life he touched. A man who brought out action in every person- some good some bad- but action because an encounter with Him purposed some response and doing nothing was never an option. Jesus was scandalous- scandalously gracious and scandalously truthful. I desire to be both of these no matter what fear factor that might create. I hope that I can be a better dad, a better husband, a better minister and a better human who people see as gracious and honest beyond comfort.
As far as today in my personal life- I act on those things clear, I wait on those things cloudy and I hope to avoid those things that lead me off course. I pray for some tools to be more with my life and an etching of my dreams and thirst for their fulfillment that will never go away.
It is such a great time in life to be growing your family and seeing your priorities shift and adjust off of you toward your spouse and children. Now my beat poet, preacher wife is incredibly strong, inspirationally tenacious, and has more endurance than anyone I know. I hope that with each day I can seek out ways to encourage her through these times of odoriferous carnage and edible drought. I desire so deeply to find flesh to being a man of God who loves his wife deeply and meaningfully. I want to discover the hidden treasures of growing through grace, loving beyond self. This life is a fragile balance among so many things and people who "need" your time and attention- for me it is a constant dance between church, teens, adults, family, child, personal wellness, service, and spiritual vitality- to name a few. I wish there was a magical protocol for living out ones life to the fullest. As I peruse the scriptures especially the examples of Jesus I fail at finding instruction on fathering infants and nurturing morning sick wives. I do however see a man who lived out grace and seeded hope into every life he touched. A man who brought out action in every person- some good some bad- but action because an encounter with Him purposed some response and doing nothing was never an option. Jesus was scandalous- scandalously gracious and scandalously truthful. I desire to be both of these no matter what fear factor that might create. I hope that I can be a better dad, a better husband, a better minister and a better human who people see as gracious and honest beyond comfort.
As far as today in my personal life- I act on those things clear, I wait on those things cloudy and I hope to avoid those things that lead me off course. I pray for some tools to be more with my life and an etching of my dreams and thirst for their fulfillment that will never go away.
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Is that sweat on your shirt or a shadow?!
it is sweat- thank you for the deep response- touching...
I mean... your post did touch me... I was just more concerned about why you were sweating that much. MAN, I'm gonna miss you. Really. I am.
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