Time

Hootie said it spot on: "Time, why do you punish me". So lets see- I am supposed to be modeling a life of faith for everyone else. I believe that includes both a spiritual life of faith and a physical life that reflects that faith. However, I am currently modeling busyness, 30 pounds overweight, struggling spiritual disciplines, sacrificed time with my family, mismanaged stress, oh yeah did I say mismanaged stress? Maybe this is what can make a pastor real. After all, I am leaving a lot of room for the spirit to work. I at least am a real person with real struggles and real problems. I don't have it all together- like that was ever a question. However, God is so big. When we are weak, God is strong. In our wanting, God is there filling. May it be forever so. Down every path I travel. Failure or success. God save me.

Me and Me

Why is it so difficult to maintain a healthy level of self-esteem? Just when I think I have just about got it right it seems that I have inevitably become prideful and a pompass butt. It is true that everyone has a butt however some are significantly larger than others. How then can there be some checks and balances established to guide me into a balance between the extremes of hating myself or loving myself too much?
I have no answers to this quandary just more and more questions. I guess I will have to be alright with that for now.

Contrition

I am apathetic. When did this happen? I thought I was being careful and yet here I am. A skeptic, comfortably numb. Where do I go from here and how do I begin to unearth this? Help.